1. As soon as I find the time
Words, phrases, sentences and ideas swirl around in your head and you want to sit down and sort them out so much; so very, very much. However, the two essays due this Thursday won’t write themselves. Also, don’t forget about those chemical equations you have to get done by midnight (online homework really can be a pain) and– oh shoot!♥
I was going to write a post on how happy I was but then I realized how much I’ve been fooling myself.
I’m not happy.
I’m tired yet a can’t sleep.
My eyes feel like bruises in my face.
My legs ache though I couldn’t tell you why.
The thought of school causes thumping in my brain.♥
I’m scared this blog is going to die.
But I don’t want it to.
I need this blog so much.
I love blogging regularly and staying up till all hours to finish a post.
I love taking pictures.
I love interacting with you.
But I just can’t write anymore.
A few years ago I was in a bad place.
So was she.
Yet she was my anchor, my rock.
She was the only one who truly understood me and vice versa.
We would spend every waking moment together. Sometimes even sleeping moments.
We would have sleepovers, but sleeping was hardly ever done.♥
Guys. The things I get done when I’m not studying for anything iikey are AMAZING!!!
Like, check out what I did today:
+ I “cleaned my room” (aka found an old photo album and spent 3 hours reminiscing about the ol’ days)
Interesting facts from my earlier days:
I was the only girl in my kindergarten class.♥
First off, I’d like to thank all you wonderful people for the sweet words you left me on my last few posts!!!
I’m really sorry for not replying, it’s just whenever I start thinking about a nice way to respond my brain goes all mushy and blank…. So I figured it was better not to answer and seem all mysterious and busy with my awesome and buzzing life (haha, can’t even say it with a straight face) instead of puking jumbled up words back at you… (Ain’t that just like the most beautiful metaphor you have ever heard..?)
My point (and yes I do have one): Thank you very much for your kind and encouraging comments and I swear I’m reading them and I appreciate them so, SO much!!!!♥
(Disclaimer: This post has nothing to do with the heading I’m just listening to the song at the moment and I love it :happy: )
Do you know that feeling when everything is just too much!!!!! School, friends, blogging, life, just everything!!! I feel like I’m in some dream watching passively day in day out, sometimes trying to grasp hold of something only to let it slip away moments later…
Graduation is app.♥
You know, as a teenager I keep changing my mind. (Ok, maybe it’s just me… Just…Go with it, ok?)
I change my mind about which T-Shirt is my favorite. I constantly have a different singer or music style I adore. I’ve switched from dream job to dream job more often than you can say “Quidditch”.♥