Don’t worry I won’t use the oblivious: “that one time I found out my dad died” that would just be boring wink
(Please note, for this and every post yet to come: I have a twisted kind of humor, especially concerning anything related to the death of my dad. My mom thinks it’s a copying mechanism but I’m pretty sure it’s just part of my warped personalty….♥
Why, oh why did I decide to graduate in chemistry!!?
And why, oh why didn’t I pay closer attention during the first year!? I’m so angry at 11th grade Cora right now!!!
Also I have math tutoring tomorrow…. AGAIN! Why? Because I flunked the written math exam. Why? Because apparently studying 10 hours a day for two weeks isn’t enough, I’m stupid and Austrian’s new testing system SUCKS!♥
It finally happened.
I no longer drift around the edges wondering what’s it like to be inside.
Now I finally belong.
Know what I’m talking about?
‘Course you don’t.
Let me clarify.
I had my first graduation exam nightmare. (Dun, dun, duuuun)
For weeks all anyone has been talking about are their scary dreams and how they can’t sleep and how nervous they are and blah blah blah.♥
Today should be the perfect day.
It’s my birthday, the sun is shining, the birds are chirping and the trees carry tiny green blossoms.
Sure, it’s early in the morning.
Sure, I have to go to school and present my graduation essay to panel of serious looking people.
Sure, I’m nervous like never before.♥
Sorry for the 24ish hours delay. My wordpress schedule thingy had a bad day and forgot to upload my Sunday post. But it’s ok. We’re ok. All is forgiven. *rainbow emoji*
Anyways speaking of bad days remember the serious dump of a slump I was in last week? Well even though I can’t say it’s completely gone (there still are days when all I want to do is curl up in bed and
die sleep), it’s definitely getting better.♥
I was going to write a post on how happy I was but then I realized how much I’ve been fooling myself.
I’m not happy.
I’m tired yet a can’t sleep.
My eyes feel like bruises in my face.
My legs ache though I couldn’t tell you why.
The thought of school causes thumping in my brain.♥
Oh my gosh I can’t believe it’s been so long since I last did one of these!!
Time flies when school is breathing down your neck….
Also, a fancy little alteration has been made: You can now add a link to one of your posts in the link-up below! tongue
My Book This Month:
Rebecca by Daphne du Maurier
An awesome, amazing, fabulous book, indeed!♥
Also I just realized we have guest coming over soon which means I’ll have to change out of my super comfy sweatpants…. *le sigh*
But despite all the ickyness that’s been going on for the past 2 month 18 days and 37.9 minutes (but whose counting) I have some great news.♥
Ok everybody freeze!!
I need a moment to catch my bearings. What in the name of all that is good just happened?
Crisis evaluation time.
One minute I’m curled up under the Christmas tree sipping hot cocoa, munching cookies and chillin’ big time. The next I’m hunched over my desk chugging coffee after coffee, stuffing Latin vocab into my brain while scribbling some text for German class.♥